game or bank?

I hope this will be the right decision, just like the decision I made to come NUS, and just like the decision I made to EA.

My main motive of getting into banking industry is to earn more $$.
But given the circumstances that the salary they offered is not high, what should I choose?

Okay, lately I have been thinking that game programming is not "serious" programming.
What I made will just be an application that used by teenagers to pass time.
However, the process of developing a game is much more enjoyable.

I have totally no idea of what is an associate technology in bank.
As my sister asked, what are the future prospects?
Will it be too narrow as a programmer in bank?

People around is keep saying that work at bank is good,
it's secure and more rewarding.
Is it true? Based on who?

I have gave up my dream to be an actuary,
now I am on the way of giving up my dream as a game developer.

It is going to be hard, but I need a change on my career path.
Indeed, I need changes on myself too.
I REALLY need to improve my English,
I really need to learn about business etiquette,
I need to learn about banking and finance.

As usual, I would not put my fate to the hands of others, I will decide on who I want to be.

tiger to become

At the first time I reach Singapore, I knew clearly my purpose here is not to have fun, make friends or fall into relationship.
My goal is to earn money so that my dad and mom can retire and enjoy for the rest of their life.
Things had changed, I had changed, the path was differ from my expectation but the direction was never been so clear.

I NEED TO MAKE MORE MONEY!

This is a tiger year, the last time I was in tiger year, I was still young and naive.
This tiger year, I am going to make my first career decision, I will decide what I want to do for living for the rest of my life.
So, when the next TY arrived, I wish that I can say: yeah, I had been great this 12years,I finally did what I wish to do, and I am finally be who I wish to be.

This is for future kai lin, when you see this and you're 36, please look back at the checklist.
And if you already achieved everything stated there, make a new checklist, and cheers to you.

life is unfair yet unpredictable.
one of them is a responsible teacher;
one of them is a very hardworking student that will study during rest period;
one of them is the leo club president;
most/all of them should have an exciting and bright future.

but god just call them off like that.

they will never able to experience the vibrant university life;
they will never able to repay their debt of gratitude to the parents
they will never able to engage in a long-term relationship;
they will never able to go through what-so-ever possibilities that can be happened to an ordinary youth.

I shall be thankful for what I already have now.

rest in peace my juniors and teachers..

from the top

first of all, happy new year!!!
2009 was a turning point from the awful life at 08, school, friends, relationship, and health are resuming back to the way that I'm familiar with.
2010 started with bright signs, and it will be another significant year for me as I'm going to graduate this year and find my first permanent job.

Yesterday night went to rooftop garden @ Orchard Center...
It was awesome!!
A nice place to view Orchard Road from the top.
The decoration there is simple yet beautiful, you can only imagine it in dream.
Else, you should go there and feel it!
I made my new year wishes plus resolutions there, need to work hard to achieve them by the end of 2010.

Live the life that planned is not terrible at all.
Indeed, I enjoyed life style that under controlled.

Merry Christmas

I am going to stay at home/shop tonight with my family. I wasn't there for the past six or seven years. Most of my holidays was spending with my family this time. Have to treasure every opportunity I can have with my family. Started from May 2010, I will only have 14 leave days each year...

Finally, I watched Disney cartoon during the Christmas Eve.


May all of my friends and family Merry Christmas and have a blessing year ahead...

end of sem 7

I have done my best for this semester, attended every single class, did every single tutorial and prepared before hand for every single lab....
although it came across with dramas (how i met your mother, heroes, born rich), games (torchlight, NBA2K9, SF4) and activities (...), it is considered as my most hardworking semester.
I had gave up some important things in my life for it, as an excuse for me to motivate myself.
this is kind of a mental sickness, to repeatedly broke something that seems perfect , I owe apologize to somebody that I hurt, sorry.
I just wish to have a good academic semester in my NUS life, other than enjoyable semesters that I think I already had.
By now, I can say I already felt satisfy for being work hard on this semester.
Even if the outcome is not a perfect one, I would thanks myself for being serious for at least once in my NUS life.

my mind say no..
my heart say yes!!!

after 30th i gona finish you...
tequila...